30x40, Acrylic on Canvas
I spent 14 years perfecting the craft of illusion, putting on a front so that nobody could see what was bothering me. A poker face. I chased people away until there was no one left but my worst enemy, myself. Before this project, I finally admitted that I was depressed. I wish I could say it was liberating but it just felt like I was on the beginning of another journey. Art has helped me process my feelings so I can start that dialogue even though I don?t want to. This past year and a half has been brutal and I reached an all time low. I will continue to fight. I encourage everyone else in my position to do the same.
Is there a big mental health problem in our country? Absolutely. A lack of providers are only part of the problem. As a society, we need to remove the stigma against asking for help. Tell at least one person what is going on in your head. If I could travel back in time and talk to my 21 year old self, I would tell him that he isn?t alone.
Remember, happiness is the goal. Happiness is Love and Love is the meaning of life.